This goes so well with yesterdays rant

Ntozake Shange, “sorry”

one thing i don’t need
is any more apologies
i got sorry greetin me at my front door
you can keep yrs
i don’t know what to do wit em
they dont open doors
or bring the sun back
they dont make me happy
or get a mornin paper
didnt nobody stop usin my tears to wash cars
cuz a sorry

i am simply tired
of collectin
i didnt know
i was so important to you
i’m gonna haveta throw some away
i cant get to the clothes in my closet
for alla the sorries
i’m gonna tack a sign to my door
leave a message by the phone
‘if you called to say yr sorry
call somebody else
i dont use em anymore’
i let sorry/ didnt meanta/ & how cd i know abt that
take a walk down a dark & musty street in brooklyn
i’m gonna do exactly what i want to
& i wont be sorry for none of it
letta sorry soothe yr soul/ i’m gonna soothe mine

you were always inconsistent
doin somethin & then bein sorry
beatin my heart to death
talkin bout you sorry
well
i will not call
i’m not goin to be nice
i will raise my voice
& scream & holler
& break things
& race the engine
& tell all yr secrets bout yrself to yr face
& i will list in detail everyone of my wonderful lovers
& their ways
i will play oliver lake
loud
& i wont be sorry for none of it

i loved you on purpose
i was open on purpose
i still crave vulnerability
& close talk
& i’m not even sorry
bout you bein sorry
you can carry all the guilt
& grime ya wanna
just dont give it to me
i cant use another sorry
next time
you should admit
you’re mean/ low-down/ triflin/ & no count straight out
steada bein sorry alla the time
enjoy bein yrsel

Random Rant!

sor·ry

   [sor-ee, sawr-ee]  Show IPA

–adjective, -ri·er, -ri·est.

1.

feeling regret, compunction, sympathy, pity, etc.: to besorry to leave one's friends; to be sorry for a remark; to besorry for someone in trouble.

2.

regrettable or deplorable; unfortunate; tragic: a sorrysituation; to come to a sorry end.

3.

sorrowful, grieved, or sad: Was she sorry when her brotherdied?

4.

associated with sorrow; suggestive of grief or suffering;melancholy; dismal.

5.

wretched, poor, useless, or pitiful: a sorry horse.

6.

(used interjectionally as a conventional apology or expressionof regret): Sorry, you're misinformed. Did I bump you?Sorry.

Lifted this from dictionary.com. Nice definition of sorry. I'm tired of sorry. People do something and immediately tell you that they are sorry. I'm SORRY but that shit has lost it's power. How can you be sorry and so the same thing over and over again? Find a new word, please give me some new word, or how bout you be honest and say you don't give a shit enough to even recognize how selfish you are. That's really what it comes down too. People claim to care but not enough to realize what they are sorry for is preventable. I mean of course keep it in perspective sometimes people have ridiculous expectations. Fortunately I'm not one of those people. I'm done with sorry. Sorry can go straight to hell. So from now on don't tell me "Sorry" just say hey Patrick "Fuck you I do what I want." I appreciate that more then some half-assed sorry.

I feel better.

Job progress

So this job thing is taking longer then expected. Thank you baby Jesus for unemployment. But still I'm not trying to be that dude that's just living off of that. I'm actually way behind in my life plan and need to start making outside the box.
So here's a few career options.


Beverage Delivery guy- I've seen these guys and they are always happy. Plus I would imagine it's pretty simple just deliver and stock the stuff. Downside I dunno how much they get paid. Also who wants to deliver that shit when it's cold outside. If I delivered beer I'd try and find away to steal it. I'd get caught and that would be then end of that career.


Avon rep- It's all sales. Yo who wouldn't buy from me. I have a face people besides my mother love. And I can make reccommendations like "This smells good on you" or "This will really bring out your eyes"  and of course this closes the deal "It's amazing I didn't think you could look more beautiful" Hell yeah ladies moisturizers, smell goods, and they have clothes. Fellas we got you too aftershave, deodorant, and of course I can give the insight on special gifts for the ladies. I mean nothing says I love you more then a whole bunch of Skin-So-Soft.


Pimp- This intrigues me cuz I think it's all about managing people. I mean I did a good job with the interns. Well not that you can compare interns to hoes. Well actually come to think of it you can. Work for nothing, no benefits, people trying to get whatever they can out of you, and I was like the protector. Yes I have transferable skills I can be a pimp.  I would run things differently at The International House Of  Worsd'oeuvres. (IHOW).  Each hoe would be treated like a bottom bitch. We would have a metrics system in place to compare hoes. Full benefits 401k, dental, vision, and day care. I'd also like to have stock options. I'd cultivate a work environment where everyone felt part of the IHOW team. The most important thing any leader can do to create a motivating environment is to make sure the work every member of the team is doing is strategic. That is, the work is important to the success of the business.


Well I'm still in the research phase of all this. I will certainly let you guys know what I chose. Until then I'll keep looking.

Are you more of a talker or more of a listener?

Sober I'm a great listening. Drunk I'm a talker

Ask me anything

If you were offered the job of U.S. president would you take the job?

hell no. I see whats happening to the first Negroe.

Ask me anything

I dunno

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So I woke up this morning singing this song. Yes I know that's very strange but for those of you who know me its par for the course.
Well I'm looking at the video and I have a great idea. Robin Thicke could re-do this song. I think they look similar. Also what's up with the Negroes in the video doing acrobatics.

Lessons Learned

From time to time I like to reflect on some things the people in my life have taught me. I have been fortunate enough to have some good people share wisdom with me.  Today the spot light belong to my Jewish people. I love  Jews. They are funny, loyal , and intelligent. Most importantly they've never been late with my pay check.
So a big Shalom  the Jews. 
This list in no particular order


1.There's nothing like a good deal, except for a better one.


2. You don't pay full price for things.


3. Treat your co-workers well.


4. Loyalty is rewarded


5. It's not cheating if you don't get caught or have a great reason for it.


6. If it's not about money what the hell are we talking about.


7. Cut the check


8. Would you piss on the Mona Lisa? Of course not. Then you wouldn't put mayo on a Pastrami sandwich.


9. You don't purchase your pastrami from Subway.


10. Rye Bread! When you order pastrimi on white bread somewhere a Jew is killed


11. Bagels are good. They better with lox or white fish.


12. Matzah is good keeps your shit tight.


13. Everybodys got a price the goal is to make them work for less.


14. Always ask the worse they can do is say no.


15. When someone asks you to go to lunch that means they are paying. Now if the person says hey would you like to go to lunch with me that schmuck has no intentions of paying.


16. Success is being able to save likes it's no ones business, live life to the fullest, and still have money left over. 


17.  Always give more, people will respect you for it.


18. Being crafty is an art form.


19. Everyones got an angle 


20. Life is easy when you don't believe in hell


21. No ones' got more hook-ups then a Jew. Yes your man might be able to get you a bootleg CD. But a good Jew will get you a record deal.


22. Gossip is not a bad thing.


23. The question is not important the answer is money


24. Jewish people are funny. The older the funnier


25. You never tell everything


26. Free is good